Momologues

© by Suraj Holzwarth 2022 There is nothing more intense, no labor harder, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, nothing more...

Tonight I treated myself with a bubble bath the water filled to the tippy-top, As I lie in the tub I am drawn to the effervescent sound...

My first husband was dissatisfied with his mother and when later in our marriage, he fell on hard times, he made it clear that he...

Three. For some reason three was the magic number in my head. Number one was so hard to conceive, to carry, to birth, to nurture. Number...

My husband was out of town for the day of my scheduled checkup. Home with our first born (via emergency cesarean), I was well into my...

When I was in college, after a spell of indiscriminate sex partners who were not at all interesting or good to me, I met an artist who...

As a college student in the early 1980's, I married young and briefly, and had two abortions. I trusted a man who turned out not to be ...

She was trying to become pregnant after so much planning. She’s so smart, such a planner. She was so thrilled to finally get a positive...

My childhood was filled with intense emotional and physical abuse. My mother was a single mom in the 80’s. My mother was mentally ill, ...

Listen, I never liked kids before having my own. I never cared about childhood development. I never knew babies were whole humans that...

"My mother is a grandmother now she says to me let’s catch up so I put my book down take a deep breath say sure and she is already...

Birth and death seem to go hand in hand. The immense feelings, emotions, and experiences that come with motherhood are unexplainable, ...

I knew I was pregnant. That’s not why I made an appointment at the family planning clinic. It wasn’t my first time in this situation,...

I was 23 when I had an abortion. I was a senior in college and getting ready to study and travel abroad for my final semester. I was...

I had been engaged for about 6 months. I had been feeling ill for several weeks, and when I missed a second period (because who on...

I had a complete hysterectomy that removed my uterus and a baby with a healthily beating heart the night before Roe v Wade was...

"I never had to grapple with a decision that would change my life one way or the other. When I found myself pregnant in a toxic ...

Storytelling is my love-language and you'd think that I'd be able to be loud and proud over this, but as you know, or can imagine, it's...

My husband and I really wanted a baby. We were in our mid thirties. We’d been trying for a year. I got pregnant. We were ecstatic. I...

We accidentally got pregnant right after getting engaged. Neither of us felt mentally, emotionally or financially ready to have a baby....