Momologues

© by Suraj Holzwarth 2022 There is nothing more intense, no labor harder, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, nothing more...

Three. For some reason three was the magic number in my head. Number one was so hard to conceive, to carry, to birth, to nurture. Number...

My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...

My husband was out of town for the day of my scheduled checkup. Home with our first born (via emergency cesarean), I was well into my...

It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...

She was trying to become pregnant after so much planning. She’s so smart, such a planner. She was so thrilled to finally get a positive...

My husband and I already had two beautiful, healthy children that were well into self-sufficient ages. Two children were all we could...

I spent the first night of my son’s life with only him in the hospital, as my husband was tired and needed to go home to sleep. I didn’t...

My childhood was filled with intense emotional and physical abuse. My mother was a single mom in the 80’s. My mother was mentally ill, ...

"My mother is a grandmother now she says to me let’s catch up so I put my book down take a deep breath say sure and she is already...

I knew I was pregnant. That’s not why I made an appointment at the family planning clinic. It wasn’t my first time in this situation,...

On July 4th, 2022 my husband and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary. Twenty-five years ago, I was focused on finishing up a work...

I was 23 when I had an abortion. I was a senior in college and getting ready to study and travel abroad for my final semester. I was...

It was 1969. A few months earlier a man I was on a date with had forcibly raped me. Now I was in Australia at a college friends sheep...

I had a complete hysterectomy that removed my uterus and a baby with a healthily beating heart the night before Roe v Wade was...

"I never had to grapple with a decision that would change my life one way or the other. When I found myself pregnant in a toxic ...

Storytelling is my love-language and you'd think that I'd be able to be loud and proud over this, but as you know, or can imagine, it's...

I was drugged and raped in college. If I hadn't miscarried I would have aborted. To this day I don't even talk about it with my husband...

When I was 32, after having my two daughters and numerous failed pregnancies, I had an abortion. My husband and I knew that we were done...

I was only 23, just started my first “big girl” job. I was engaged, but my fiancé was involved in an unpaid apprenticeship. My god we...