Sep 23, 2022The Sonogram Tech Gave Me No SignsThree. For some reason three was the magic number in my head. Number one was so hard to conceive, to carry, to birth, to nurture. Number...
Jul 28, 2022Strike One, Strike Two, Strike ThreeMy entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...
Jul 10, 2022Five pregnancies, one abortion, two miscarriages, two live birthsFive pregnancies, one abortion, two miscarriages, and two live births. All such different experiences and I was a different person for...
Jun 28, 2022I wanted that baby so muchI had a complete hysterectomy that removed my uterus and a baby with a healthily beating heart the night before Roe v Wade was...
Nov 1, 2021One, Two, Three, Four, FiveDriving through Utah on our way to Zion National Park, I keep checking my phone, looking for some bars. I can’t believe that our fate is...
Oct 20, 2021I lost somethingI realized I had lost something I hadn’t had before, after touching base with my new neighbor, years after I had lost it. She was...
Dec 13, 2020Baby absorbing baby.Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to Vanishing Twin Syndrome. We had tried just about everything to get...
Dec 13, 2020The death of a future I thought I was going to have.There is nothing like being a mother. Our stories are unique, and should be honored as such. If we don’t, many vulnerable women will feel...
Dec 13, 2020I write this not knowing what the future holdsTrigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to miscarriage. Pure exhaustion, beyond any flu; vulnerability that can’t be...