Momologues

Sixty-two self-identified mothers participated in a series of text prompts for six-weeks.

© by Suraj Holzwarth 2022 There is nothing more intense, no labor harder, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, nothing more...

My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...

My husband was out of town for the day of my scheduled checkup. Home with our first born (via emergency cesarean), I was well into my...

I spent eight months worrying about what it would be like when I finally went into labor. I had heard so many stories about painful birth...

It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...

My husband and I already had two beautiful, healthy children that were well into self-sufficient ages. Two children were all we could...

My childhood was filled with intense emotional and physical abuse. My mother was a single mom in the 80’s. My mother was mentally ill, ...

I knew I was pregnant. That’s not why I made an appointment at the family planning clinic. It wasn’t my first time in this situation,...

In a high school varsity hockey game my son in his Jr. year, was going for a puck on the boards right in front of his team's bench. He...

After a surprise pregnancy and 9 months getting used to the idea of my new role, I had outlined my birth “preferences”. I had always...

I was 23 when I had an abortion. I was a senior in college and getting ready to study and travel abroad for my final semester. I was...

“And be REALLY CAREFUL, Mommie, it’s REALLY BREAKABLE!” Alden handed me the little package as if it contained a bubble still swirling...

Driving through Utah on our way to Zion National Park, I keep checking my phone, looking for some bars. I can’t believe that our fate is...

I know now that I experienced postpartum depression with both of my boys, but to different degrees. Back then, there really wasn't a...

You’d never think that motherhood would involve so much losing and finding of my kids’ body parts!  Not to mention the body parts I’ve...

I can remember one evening shortly after returning to work after maternity leave and coming home from work/daycare with both girls....

I remember right after my daughter was born they took her to the nursery, cleaned me up and moved me from the birthing room to a regular...

My nurse on the day we left the hospital: “isn’t it amazing, it’s like your heart left your body and is now in the world” she said. This...

I gained a lot of weight during my late thirties pregnancies. I nursed two babies for a combination of 51 months. Both left my body with...