The Sonogram Tech Gave Me No Signs
Three. For some reason three was the magic number in my head. Number one was so hard to conceive, to carry, to birth, to nurture. Number...
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Momologues
Sixty-two self-identifying mothers responded to 18 text prompts. Read them here.
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Jul 28, 2022
Strike One, Strike Two, Strike Three
My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...
Jul 10, 2022
We were not ready to start a family.
It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...
Jul 10, 2022
It’s hard to be a mom when the word MOTHER somewhere in your psyche terrifies you
My childhood was filled with intense emotional and physical abuse. My mother was a single mom in the 80’s. My mother was mentally ill, ...
Jul 7, 2022
Hockey Moms
In a high school varsity hockey game my son in his Jr. year, was going for a puck on the boards right in front of his team's bench. He...
Jul 6, 2022
Avoid bearing children at all costs
On July 4th, 2022 my husband and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary. Twenty-five years ago, I was focused on finishing up a work...
Nov 20, 2021
Rage shows up sometimes.
When we were already late, but I chose to squeeze in 45 seconds to run the vacuum; which coincidentally, is enough time for both children...
Nov 1, 2021
One, Two, Three, Four, Five
Driving through Utah on our way to Zion National Park, I keep checking my phone, looking for some bars. I can’t believe that our fate is...
Feb 1, 2021
Blessed and torn.
I do not remember the first time my mother told me that God wanted me to be her child. I do remember she told me that she wasn’t able to...
Dec 13, 2020
My daughter lied.
My daughter lied. My sweet, quiet, honest (wasn’t she?!) daughter lied. And not just a little lie, but a big one - the kind with real...
Dec 13, 2020
‘Who will hold me?’ I wondered.
My last month of pregnancy I was wondering where my friends were. Busy with their business and not inviting me their fun. I guess due to...
Dec 13, 2020
What right did those people have to take her baby?
You’re getting fat. What are you pregnant? I smiled, having known that this moment was coming. She sat across from me, her own belly...
Dec 13, 2020
This baby felt foreign to me and I couldn't tell anyone.
I know now that I experienced postpartum depression with both of my boys, but to different degrees. Back then, there really wasn't a...
Dec 13, 2020
It was a shock to me.
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to suicide. It was a cool November morning. I was cleaning up the kitchen...
Dec 13, 2020
We knew prenatally that my daughter had Down Syndrome
The labor of my second daughter came on fast, and on our way into Boston, I almost gave birth to her on the Mass Pike. We made it to...
Dec 13, 2020
Baby absorbing baby.
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to Vanishing Twin Syndrome. We had tried just about everything to get...
Dec 13, 2020
Hey Babe...
Chloe, age 3, after telling her she was going to be a big sister: “Would you like a little sister or a little brother?” “Hmmmm, how about...
Dec 13, 2020
You never really get rid of that muscle memory.
I don’t usually talk about my pregnancy, birthing story, or the first two years of my son’s life. I stick to more upbeat topics. I was...
Dec 13, 2020
The day he didn't show up.
I’m going to start in the middle, on the day my husband forgot to show up. The day I gave birth to my second child. He showed up in body...
Dec 13, 2020
Self care.
I was thinking the other day about how I am not doing any self care lately, ever since the baby was born. It dawned on me- if I don’t...
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